babies

Well i have come to the conclusion that my ovaries and uterus must be depressed and need to see a shrink. all around me babies have been born the last month or so. i swear everyone was pregnant at the same time and all i kept thinking was its not fair. i told myself i wouldn't talk about this subject to anyone including my family but i'm tired of holding it in for so long and i'm frustrated. people that i know just breathed the word baby once and got pregnant and then here i am doing the baby seance every hour and nothing. i have put it off for so long to have a career and now i wish i would have just done it early on. i was ready then just selfish i guess, i had goals i wanted to achieve first. i realize part of the problem is me, i mean after 10 years of marriage/being together the newness has worn off. the idea of sex everynight for like a week makes me tired and my husband feel used :) anyhow my next yearly appt is next month and i've decided i'm going to get tested for fertility and request some meds to help out. i discussed this with my doctor a couple years ago and she was willing to try meds if i wanted at that time. i'm just scared at the idea that something might be wrong, i don't think i could fathom not being about to concieve and would definitely need counselling. i'm sorry family that you have to find out this way but its not a subject i like to talk about out loud. i'm sure alot of this is stemming from the fact that i'm two weeks away from my next birthday (32) and i ain't getting any younger. by the time it happens i will have to see like 10 doctors because i'm old and high risk! LOL. anyhow if you've had trouble like me feel free to comment, if you are one that just breathes it please don't....