6-17-09

Well the inevitable is still approaching.

i work tonight and tomorrow night (wed and thur nights) and then have off until tuesday next week..yeah! this means i have the entire weekend off with Ira which is nice. he took sunday off for fathers day so we actually get to spend 3 days together or something like that since i'm sure i will need a nap on friday when i get off work. we are planning on going down to his brothers in blair on sunday and hopefully we can go to the zoo this weekend since we haven't gone yet this year. we have trenton this weekend so it would be a good time to go and it is suppose to be nice out! next week on tuesday i have "graduation" from my orientation program at creighton. we have a whole ceremony and everything. Then that means i'm on my own after that which is okay cause i'm ready or as ready as i'm going to be at this point in my career.

summer band has also started in sioux city. i am going to sub a couple weekends this summer only due to work. but everyone should go out to the concerts if they can, its a great time and FREE. email me if you need info on it.

babies

Well i have come to the conclusion that my ovaries and uterus must be depressed and need to see a shrink. all around me babies have been born the last month or so. i swear everyone was pregnant at the same time and all i kept thinking was its not fair. i told myself i wouldn't talk about this subject to anyone including my family but i'm tired of holding it in for so long and i'm frustrated. people that i know just breathed the word baby once and got pregnant and then here i am doing the baby seance every hour and nothing. i have put it off for so long to have a career and now i wish i would have just done it early on. i was ready then just selfish i guess, i had goals i wanted to achieve first. i realize part of the problem is me, i mean after 10 years of marriage/being together the newness has worn off. the idea of sex everynight for like a week makes me tired and my husband feel used :) anyhow my next yearly appt is next month and i've decided i'm going to get tested for fertility and request some meds to help out. i discussed this with my doctor a couple years ago and she was willing to try meds if i wanted at that time. i'm just scared at the idea that something might be wrong, i don't think i could fathom not being about to concieve and would definitely need counselling. i'm sorry family that you have to find out this way but its not a subject i like to talk about out loud. i'm sure alot of this is stemming from the fact that i'm two weeks away from my next birthday (32) and i ain't getting any younger. by the time it happens i will have to see like 10 doctors because i'm old and high risk! LOL. anyhow if you've had trouble like me feel free to comment, if you are one that just breathes it please don't....

Working nights and new baby.

Well i have to say i'm enjoying working nights! its a little slower paced, there aren't 500 doctors running around that i don't know who they are, i don't have to figure out who to call because there are only like 3 choices, and the best part is the mentality of the night staff that everyone is there to help you. during the day its so busy that its every man/woman for themselves and at night its not, its a group effort. I love that! and it makes me more relaxed. i definitely feel like i'm ready to be on my own and on days i never felt like that even after weeks and weeks of working days. its such a different animal working during the day.

I now have a new niece named Elle she was born on May 28th and she is beautiful. Ira and i went up to sioux falls on thursday and friday last week to see her. It was so exciting to finally meet her, i can't wait to see her grow and find out who she looks like. below is a picture of big brother jakob and baby elle. i will upload more pictures soon.